Tonight we are paused in the doctor’s office.
It’s Friday night and I’m relieved we got an evening appointment. “Let’s just make sure you don’t have strep throat,” I said to Adi as we pulled our coats closer and walked through the dark and quiet park, towards the pediatrician’s office.
Once we’re called in for our appointment, I rattle off Adi’s symptoms to the nurse. “She woke up with a sore throat and spiked a fever this afternoon… we just wanted to make sure it isn’t strep. She did have the stomach bug earlier this week,” I say.
The nurse comes in for the dreaded throat culture. I hold Adi, not ready for the thrust she lets out as soon as the swab gets close to her mouth. We regroup, pinning her arms and head this time. The nurse leaves and we recuperate. I rock Adi and tell her that she is brave.
The doctor comes in and we rehash the details that have brought us to the doctor’s office on this cold winter night. The doctor patiently examines my girl, talking to her sweetly. “Her throat is a little red. The strep test was negative. Let’s just test her for the flu to be safe. The ‘new and improved’ culture now takes 15 minutes instead of 10. If you have a few minutes, we can just rule that out. The flu swab is nothing compared to the throat swab.”
We have nowhere to be, but in my mind I rule out the flu. We will be on our way and ready for the weekend in no time.
The nurse comes back. “I’m always the bad guy,” she mutters under her breath as we both brace ourselves for what comes next. Again Adi thrashes and we are left to recover as the nurse leaves.
Again, I rock her, staring down at her, just like I did when she was a baby. She reaches up and gently pushes by chin and my gaze away. Cuddling is enough for her. I savor the quiet and the moment in the pale yellow office covered with photos and drawings of frogs.
The doctor returns. “It’s positive,” he states.
“That wasn’t fifteen minutes,” I respond as I process the news he has shared.
We bundle up again, ready to brace the cold. I hold Adi’s hand as we cross the parking lot. As we settle into the car, I take a deep breath before starting the car, mentally preparing for more germs and caregiving. I turn to look at Adi and give her a smile, hoping it says that everything will be alright.
10 thoughts on “Paused…again.”
Oh, poor sweet Adi! I still remember being ill as a child- and the comfort of the cuddles and reassurance you so beautifully describe (and deliver). I hope she gets well soon and the rest of the family escapes the dread flu.
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Oh no….Poor Adi. Poor you. I sure hope the rest of your family stays healthy. Sending you strength. Let me know how I can help you.
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❤️❤️ Thank you! Just send all your healthy energy this way! ❤️
Well crafted slice that moves so slowly making the reader feel the anticipation that you felt in the moment. The ending captures the feeling of acceptance “taking a deep breath” and propels us forward into your future of “caregiving”. Hope Adi is on the mend and the rest of your peeps have health soon! Thanks, as always, for sharing!
I hope Adi is feeling better now, she definitely is a brave girl 🙂 I can so relate to your story though, we have and still spend hundreds of weekends or working days doing the dreaded visit to the doctor’s. My daughter hates it with a vehemence, but sometimes its just inevitable.
But just like that, a few days and the kids are back in form, ready to rock and roll 🙂
I enjoyed the tension you created with all if the detail and how my mind made the leap to “it must be bad” with the “it’s not been 15 minutes” line. I sure hope she’s feeling better and that the rest of the family is not flu-fallen now.
The pause in life’s frenzy was tangible in this post. I never wished my children to be ill, but do remember cherishing the moments that allowed me to stop all else and just “mother”. I hope Adi feels better soon.
No one likes the flu – just typing the word makes me queasy. yet your post captures that motherly love we need at times like this. Your words share that compassion we are called to display in times like this. Thank you for sharing.
Your OLW is presenting itself On full force and completely different than planned. I’m glad you’re able to see that it’s just a pause in the day to day and using it for your slice time. You describe Adi so well in this slice cuddling into you. Hope she is feeling better.
Really hoping that Adi is feeling better and the rest of you don’t get the flu! Love how you turn this into a story, how the mild tension illustrates a parenting moment that so many of us have experienced. Good luck this week.